😢 In the Midst of Tears
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)
Life is full of challenges. Every person faces trials at different stages of their journey.
Today, I want to share one of mine.
Many years ago, when I was still a child, I began experiencing health issues. As I grew up, I visited countless doctors. I underwent many tests, received several diagnoses, and followed various treatments, yet I never found complete healing.
Nor did anyone seem to know what was truly wrong. For nearly half my life, I lived in and out of hospitals, always hoping that this time would be different.
🙏 When Healing Doesn’t Come
When I gave my life to Christ, my prayers became focused: “Lord, heal me.”
I asked for deliverance. I pleaded for understanding. I hoped someone, maybe a special “Elisha” (*), would lay hands on me and I’d be healed instantly.
But nothing changed.
Eventually, I began to accept my condition… but with bitterness.
I was angry at God. Why wouldn’t He heal me? Why wouldn’t He even reveal the name of this affliction?
I began to believe maybe He didn’t love me as much as He loved others. Why me? I asked again and again.
💔 When the Answer Isn't What You Hoped For
Three years ago, after yet another round of consultations, I finally received a diagnosis. It was a rare malformation, the hidden cause of the recurring illnesses I had battled for years.
At first, I was relieved. I had an answer.
But then… my heart sank. There was no cure. No treatment to reverse it. Only long-term management and daily medication.
It felt like my world collapsed. I had hoped for something different—a miracle, a turnaround, a victory report.
What I received was a life sentence.
🌼 But God Did Something Greater
1. I became a mother.
One of my greatest fears was that I would never be able to carry a child. This illness often causes respiratory challenges, and I worried I wouldn’t have the strength for childbirth.
But God...
He not only allowed me to conceive, I gave birth to two beautiful children, naturally, without assistance. The very thing I thought would disqualify me became the backdrop for His power.
“His strength was made perfect in my weakness.”
2. I learned to trust Him.
I may never fully understand the why. But I’ve made peace with the Who.
Once I stopped living in constant worry, once I stopped questioning God’s love and started resting in it, everything changed. Less anxiety. Less fear. Fewer symptoms.
“A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.”
Proverbs 17:22 (FRC)
🌷 A Word for You
I don’t know what you’re facing. I don’t know how many times you’ve prayed for healing, or how many people have prayed with you.
But I do know this:
- God loves you.
- He has a plan for your life.
- What feels like a limitation today will not stop what God has prepared for you tomorrow.
🙌 So What Should You Do?
- Trust Him. Even when it hurts.
- Refuse to live in fear.
- Surrender your timeline and expectations.
What you’re walking through may not change overnight, but you can change how you walk through it.
📖 Related Story: Read the story of Naaman (2 Kings 5). Sometimes, healing doesn’t come in the way we expect—but it still comes through obedience and trust.
